Wednesday, July 31, 2024
I have a love hate relationship with camping
the thought of crawling
into a tiny tent
laying on the cold ground
with a determined stone
against my spine
stealing my sleep
isn't something
I have fond feelings for
still there are moments...
waking
up at
Truth or Consequence
to see the sunrise
streak the skies
in rainbow sherbert swirls
the dusky mauve mountains
stretching
behind
the clear cobalt Caballo lake
or
diving into the warm waves
with dolphins
in the timeless afternoon
savoring the joy
of island boon docking
the quietude
and calm
or
out on a Big Sur hillside
the night air crisp and salty
the waves crashing below
where I was
dreaming
a dream
of falling
back
through life
to my birth
to oblivion
to oneness
and when I woke, the skies indigo and inviting
I spied
the crescent moon
scooping
stars
The night
all
my
own
Camp NaNoWriMo Day 31
Tuesday, July 30, 2024
My data
is
desirable
more sexy
than my skin
It can be sold
bought
or
stolen
as coveted as
a promise of
a hot date
a nip slip
a blow job
My data
is
one hot commodity
a sugar baby
getting
all the call backs
job offers at the ready
and being well kept
readily offered
My data
has a life
of its own
And
the
rent
is long over due
Time to sequester
my data
for its wanton ways
and secure
a dark web deposit
for
my
troubles
Camp NaNoWriMo Day 30
Monday, July 29, 2024
Start close in
even if your eyes
tired from the endless
hours
staring
at the sun
start to blur
I want you
to see
me
naked
here
with your breath
hushed
and
hot
here
I have nothing to hide
keep
coming
closer
into
the
halo
watch
as
our
edges
burn
Camp NaNoWriMo Day 29
Sunday, July 28, 2024
In the sterile silence,
I sit,
time stretching like shadows
across the room,
each tick of the clock
a heartbeat echoing
my unspoken fears.
The white walls close in,
thoughts spiral like autumn leaves,
each one a question,
a memory, a what-if,
while the world outside
continues its hum,
waiting
wondering
will it be
enough
this
time?
I trace the edges of hope,
fragile as glass,
wondering what tomorrow holds—
the weight of potential wrapped
in the cold clutch of uncertainty,
a whisper of dread curling
in the corners of my mind.
We await
the reaping
wondering
Will the news bring light
or the chill of shadows?
I breathe in the quiet,
holding tight to fragments of strength,
bracing
to face whatever unfolds,
knowing that in this moment,
waiting is both a burden
and a testament to resilience.
may the odds
be ever
in your favor
Camp NaNoWriMo Day 28
Saturday, July 27, 2024
In the fading light,
We speak of
plagues
politics
and
pretense,
the world
an aeon flux,
together
with only
laughter
our shield
against the chaos
while Starfleet seeks
strange new worlds
and
we
find
our
words
Camp NaNoWriMo Day 27
Friday, July 26, 2024
Here I sit
seeking words
while
the Echo of Old Books
calls to me
from the chaise
The Midnight Library
teetering a top
a steep stack
keeping close
company
with
Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow
The tired bookcase
like me
yet
more than half my age
boughs
under the weight
of it all
waiting
for
a
new
Release
and
I
wait
to be
inspired
Camp NaNoWriMo Day 26
Thursday, July 25, 2024
Once Upon A Time
a time when
there were no bounds, set
no edges, hard
no limits, known
I collected stories
like seashells
scattered
across the speckled sand
the sand that squeaked
beneath our bare feet
as we wandered
the infinite shore
at Cranes Beach
Salt and seafoam
sunburns and sea diamonds
sandollars
shook
if we were lucky, the dove
still inside
my life
was a summer day
stretching towards
an endless
horizon
now the days
grow short
the shadows
grow long
my long hair
streaked and speckled
with white
my sight
dimmed
still here
I ask
How is it
that I can remember
tomorrow
when today
is
all
but
forgotten?
Camp NaNoWriMo Day 25
Wednesday, July 24, 2024
A mother's struggle
she holds fast
to this
new life
asleep in her arms
wondering what the world
will bring
to
this
one
being
She holds tightly
to tiny hands
hoping
for
safe passage
though
this
one
wild
life
She holds back
all
the vitriol
and
tears
alike
watching
as the girl
is
no
more
She holds
onto
moments
memories
made
her mother's mark
weaving
its wisdom
at her brow
She holds out
her hands
small and trembling
to the one
now
a
woman
with
her own
wisdom
streak
"I am here"
she says
the struggle softening
now but a distant
whisper
on the early
winter
wind
Camp NaNoWriMo Day 24
Tuesday, July 23, 2024
is a garden
once verdant
and wild
low leaning lilacs
and
Wide open Iris
ever arching
towards the sky
now
all
is
withering
and
woeful
yellowing
left
long
to overwinter
without
regard
no birds
nor bees
frequent here
why would they
the blooms are gone
my sweet silk
long since
bolted
all
that is
left
is
a memorial
of neglect
Camp NaNoWriMo Day 23
Monday, July 22, 2024
Please
hold me
down
below
the embers
glow
red and pulsing
Leave
me
wanting
what will not
be
mine
Feel
me
my skin
stil slick
redolent
with salt
smoke
and
sandalwood
there is nothing
left
but the indigo sky
Camp NaNoWriMo Day 22
Sunday, July 21, 2024
There was a time
in the tangled years
of youth
when the pen
eager to obey
my orders
words would flow
onto the page
as effortless
as
breathing
or
bleeding
this time
in the agony of the unseen
my words
labored
and
clotting
as I scratch
an inkless rod
onto a glowing diode tablet
begging
the
recalcitrant
muse
to comply
Her demands
simple
I yield
under the pressure
her insistence
to persist
to deepen
the groove
however
painful
until the place
grows warm
and
familiar
as
tears
Camp NaNoWriMo Day 21
Saturday, July 20, 2024
I greet the day
in darkness
unfolding my limbs
shaking off dreams
settling on the chaise
with coffee
and compassion
Sometimes
I see
the sun rise
all early orange in the east
over Russian Hill
Sometimes
my eyes
closed
my breath
slow
the sky glows gold
across the bay
Sitting
in the morning
as new as dawn
Camp NaNoWriMo Day 20
Friday, July 19, 2024
I fear I have nothing
to say
that every utterance
drool soaked
and
garbled
says
nothing
or worse
says
everything
all my foibles
fears
failures
and
falsehoods
I tell myself
it is ok
everyone
is
imperfect
that somehow
by getting it out
getting anything out
I will make space
to grow
to grow
a will
a discipline
a voice
a backbone
I pick at my manicured memories
with an orange wood stick
I push the point
deep back
to the quick
I scrape
the dirt
dug up
for the evidence
of planting
a garden
a
single
seed
a
life
finding
feeling
finally
in my fingertips
Camp NaNoWriMo Day 19
Thursday, July 18, 2024
Our Life spans
like metal rings
winding
around
us
our words
wandering
off the spiral bound
childhood
where we first crossed paths
in
between
the coming
and
the bitterness
of age
we coiled
words
around
every
choice
and
catastrophe
twisting
the pen
between the lines
with vengeance
and indifference
all the same
the page
begs
for
it
its translucent ivory skin
veins arching up to the surface
like tangled sanguine vines
grasping for sunlight
bring down the blade
and
let
it
bleed
Camp NaNoWriMo Day 18